Escapism & Attachments = Rebuild

 

Ironically. I have a project called Escapism to work on, which is for the repairs team.

I also have had a major issue for some time in regards to HTML form attachments in that I cannot upload something without it causing an error due to base64 strings being unterminated (string literal). 

My work laptop, though meant to be powerful will need a rebuild due to a long line off issues. Performance is weak. Time is being wasted. Annoying issues.

I have thought about this, maybe this is a message in disguise from Allah, his plan was to invite me maybe to understand my own problems in life through these work projects.

I contstantly escape. Escape from what. Responsibility, work and most of all, my life. I abandon the idea or notion of time and the value of it. Doing anything and everything except whats right.

Do I have an attachement problem. The past. Things that have happened before. The people I have met. A time that we seem to glorify more in our heads than appreciate when it happens. Attachment in the dunya. Though I am not a materialistic person by any means, maybe its true, my issues are due to attachments and escapism.

Perhaps I need a rebuild too, don't we all. If the laptop needs a rebuild then I surely do. Reset my brain to factory settings? It might change everything. My blockages may no longer be present. I could push through work without getting distracted. I could get married without worrying. 

It feels like this is a sign, and it sure is a masterpiece of one.

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